Losing someone dear is very hard. It’s devastating. It’s unbear-able. One whom you’ve come to care, And love. One you’ve spent so much time with. One with whom you’ve shared – Laughter. Tears. Happiness. Sadness. Disappointments. Dreams. Hope. Secrets. Why yesterday was? How today is? What tomorrow will be? And yet, Despite how my self feels, I need to think with my mind, not my heart. I need to be strong. I need to be tough. Because that’s who I supposedly am. I’m a pillar that everyone can lean on. I’m the one whom everyone seeks refuge in. And so. I cannot falter. I cannot be vulnerable. I need to keep my mind occupied. I need to be buried in work. I need to turn my back away. I must never look back. I must not try to remember. All we had are now but memories. It’s the hardest. It is extremely painful. But... It’s not giving up. It is learning to let go. It is learning to move on. And when, If our paths do cross at another point, I earnestly pray, We’ll find our way back to where we were. © cyndy © | 
